HELLO,
WHAT!, i have something to say!

1. Bring wine
2. Some one hyper and nuts
3. Pillow
4. Computer
5. Floor
6. Camamer

YEAH! YEAH YEAH! i want to go do hw now ! dang it! ARGH ARGH

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9:12 pm

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11:36 pm

I used to love britney spears! But what the fuck has happen to her ! oh my well it really suck her recently shaving her bloody head and now this look !


all the videos related to her are like all over youtube what a life ..

time flys
10:41 pm

Well everyone is posting about new year, new year here and there, Franky i have a so so new year.

time flys
11:22 pm

SO much for Chinese new year, i feel like a aunt being all superstition.

Anyway i didn't know that my grandfather's uncle live in like some freak big house with a lift and a basement car park, and being part of that family tree is super confusing i don even know who is what and what to call them... I could only feel jealous and wonder why I'm not in that house with lift and car park, well cant feel jealous all the time, be happy with what you have (:

I read my horoscope for this month and one sentence " friendship and relationships are important, let there be no misunderstanding" it super true and that is what I'm going to do. Thinking what it will be like if "friend" is never my friend again, it pretty much suck, i think this whole thing is stupid everyone is at fault i cant believe at this age WE are still acting like that oh my gosh why cant we all just understand each other.

Well i wanna go catch ZZZ now gonna go do more visiting tomorrow and ha ha " EYE on my money ". Today's "catch" was great so close to my RED [product]

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12:02 am

Right on the dot 12 mid-night, WELL hello long sweet holiday, although i have tuition tomorrow....

Anyway today was OK OK good and bad , sad and happy went to find pauls after school with glad and mels go orchard to get stupid new year clothes, I HATE SHOPPING, some how i wish i have a lot of clothes in my wardrobe but not shop for them .... some shit happen, OK and some other shit didn't happen whatever. To crapped up to talk about it, oh and saw a lot of old classmates , ex senior etc at orchard so scary .. pauls and i talk about lots stuff when i fetch her home all never talked so serious for like the whole week until like just now , well i wanna go sleep now and like take myself in some land and like dream and sleep .

i feel so alphabets like ..

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12:00 am

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10:46 pm

OK one word STRESS, i don even have much time to go online or go out hang chill like the old days ( sec 1, sec 2 days ).

tomorrow is like some performance and i am like gonna conduct, and would you believe me if i told you that i will freak and not move at all.. nervous hope all goes well .

i have not finish all my homework, blah blah ARGH screw school,fail math and chinese !! SCREW IT ! i wonder how long am i gonna survive

FALLOUTBOYS GOOD BYE
kill me for not going to their consert!! WQcbfdjkvbihsar bgi!

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11:28 pm

OH MY GOSH GOSH GOSH!
i feel like my bottom half of my body is almost dead! kulintangs have been standing the whole day, wait we stand all the time but i think its cause i "bounce" too much and put too much force on my some muscle near the knee.

Anyway, this camp was super satisfying although we only made like say 50% improvement or something i think its very good. although we need more improvement but don't u say from a COP (certi of participation) to a TOUCH sliver is good. I mean we like "missed" bronze but still gold with hourrrrnesss is way better. i can just imagine me being the 1st one to scream when the lameo person from sfy says " Saint Anthony's blah blah GOLD WITH HOURSNES !!! " ohmygosh everyone will cry tears of joy !

I am so proud of angklung band for making this improvement now everyone can like be quite when miss faridah talks and cuts the note but still music wise a bit not so good.


GO ANGKLUNG BAND WE CAN DO IT!! YEAH! THINK GOLD , THINK PLAYING EVERY DAY AFTER SYF FEELING SO FREE!!! WE CAN DO IT ! PB TOO WE WILL ALL WORK TOGETHER TO ACHIEVE THAT FREAKING GOLD !

I think i go crazy at night ...

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11:18 pm

YEAH! YEAH! i feel happpppy WEEEEEEEE!
but i didn't finish all my homework CAJs !! CURSE YOU! anyhow angklung wan fantastic today everyone was like super quite, and like u can feel the syf mood ! its so amazing! me and alaineee were like hugging and like super touched but ENOUGH OF PRAISEEES, TODAY IS ONLY THE START WE CAN AND WE WILL DO BETTER ((:

I PASS like like English but the mark was not that "good" looking... ACCOUNTS 13/15 ! PHY 5/5 ! YEAH YEAH and math.. fail fail fail 9/25 i think i know i got a 9 ! REASON REASON ... no calculator! ARGH!

TOMORROW have 2 tuition and and yar ! hope miss Wendy don call me CAJ index number or i will die !!


NURYL the girl who found me blog !! you naughty girl you I BLOGing about you nanananipoo poo !! AHHAHA be more focus during angklung ok ! after SYF u can do anything u want u silly willy ! HAHA

time flys
11:25 pm

PRISS SAID SHE HAVE FREE TICKETS!

if she told me eariler i would consider ! OHMYGOSHH

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10:42 pm

I HAVE COME TO A AWFUL LONG CONCLUSION THAT I CHELSEA LOW SHALL NOW GO FOR THE LOVELY FALL OUT BOYS CONCERT! Although i have grated the permission from my parents that i could go but listing server factors i decided not to go , i know sad ask me why ..

1. I love them for their songs not look all ha
2. Save money for red ipod!
3. I don't know some how half of me wants to half doesn't

So over and done with the FALL OUT BOYS to go or not to go concert, when to the converse wear house sales with has EVER LAST! practically everything that i bought was ever last felt like there was nothing much but some how bought some shit 1 shorts and 2 shirt all for home use or like casual nothing very formal all, although i wanted a pair of sneakers but it did "call" my name.. eg " Chelsea Chelsea u must get me " kinda thing so i just left there feeling quite satisfied i think.

SCHOOL TOMORROW , ANGKLUNG TOMORROW.. dreaded , somehow i feel like i do not want to be part of Angklung anymore to be part of all these shit but i know i have to do something to this shit, i must preserve!

time flys
10:24 pm

What a day, today is one of my most emotional days, everything that i treasure the most is suddenly being taken away from me. If you say u understand you don't, is this frustrating feeling of being helpless seeing what u love and treasure the most taken away right in front of your eyes, like your favorite childhood toy being taken away and all u can do if cry and want it back so bad and not being able to do anything about it. Because you know u cant all u can do is cry. this is how suck i feel now, cause all i can do now is be like a kid and cry and wine i want all those that is being taken away from me to come back. Feeling fucking deprived and no sense of security it just all suck.

i want all those precious memories to come back,
i want to embrace all the happiness no sorrows just the feeling of being loved and being able the life in one piece
i want Ruth back , hugging me in her arms and calling me Chelsie, in the past i thoughts that was all silly but now i take all those back, i never thought i would say this but i want you to call me Chelsie as many times as possible and never leave !
i want to go back to the time were the innocence of a sec1 in angklung band just doing my best to help the band play the song right and feeling for it there were no worries back then everything was all in place everyone aimed for only the highest , everyone was loved
i want to go back to the time where angklung music was just fucking mind blowing that it would just take your breath away, that it would make your heart stop to listen to us !

I know just thinking about all these crushed up thoughts would just hurt me even deeper, because i am only wishing for all that's in the past and would never come back, the feeling will never be the same! if i knew i would regret for not being able to treasure all these ! i would have know better than to appreciate and accept everything and not complain ! But now no matter how much i wish and hope all these memories to come back when it never will , it is lost forever everything is now crushed up it so hard to pick up all the pieces it will never be the same!

But i will never give up, i will strive hard to make everything the same again although some thing can never be the same but i will achieve for the best of it! To get back what i treasure the most, to feel the sense of accomplishment a feeling that will over come all my sorrows all my cuts and burns ! I shall inspire all to do the same. THE DAY WILL COME WHEN ALL MY HARD WORK IS BEING REWARDED WITH THIS AWESOME FEELING. But for now i have to work hard WE ALL HAVE TO !

time flys
11:37 pm

NO homeworktoday, but i have yet to finish all my dammit current affairs! SCREW YOU!
Ok now time to get a bit emotional.


RUTH SCHOOLING!













MY Silly silly friend, man screw you why must you leave! We've only spent 1 year together and now you leave me oh my. But i thank you for making me feel loved, you of all person understand me the most most , from falling in love with Jun ki to talking rubbish and mood swings. i hope that we will always keep in touch and not break apart. i do not want to lose a friend like you (:


Something is about to happen, will it be with we all hope and wish for , will there be tears, with all these mixed emotions what will become of us. What?

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8:27 pm